currently loving..

Cranberry Juice. : )

every time i come home, i just open the fridge and drink this -- it's so refreshing. : ) i usually drink this before i go to work and go to bed. since i started drinking this the last time i had my UTI (urinary tract infection), i just kept on buying and drinking more. it's healthy too. see for yourself. goodnight!! : )

updates and some thoughts.

it's mid-week. : ) this day was quick. maybe because i was busy at work that's why i didn't noticed the time.. good. after work my Aunt and i dropped by the grocery to buy ice cream and cranberry juice. i love cranberry juice lately. : ) as usual, it was still HOT today, but it rained tonight. while eating dinner, i was looking at the sky thinking it might rain, then i saw a tornado. a tornado in Manila?!? yup! i saw it. its far from our place, but from our building, i saw it moving.. very fast. i was so scared. i wonder where it came from. after around four minutes, rain started to pour and it was gone. i hope to never see one again.

after having second thoughts on going out after seeing what i saw, i went to the mall and had my brother's undershirt's size changed. it's almost a week since i bought it, so i have to have it changed already. luckily, a friend accompanied me. : ) i had it changed, bought a top from Kamiseta, and my favorite Curry Naan and Cheese Flosss from Breadtalk and came home. : ) it feels good to be home. to have time for yourself.. do nothing and just take your time. : ) since i started working, it seems like i hardly had any time to rest. during the day, there were just a lot of work to do. during the night, i go to church and sometimes even have problems sleeping. i always thought that there's no time to waste, and i just had to go, go, go. but it's not healthy, and from now on, i hope that i'd learn to balance my time in everything. like what the Bible said, indeed there's time for everything. : )

before i end this entry, i want to share with you what i received last weekend -

a surprise package from Auntie Rebecca. : ) it's a book. it's her graduation gift for me aside from this - which she got me when we saw each other at the conference -

yummy goodies from Cebu haha. inside the book, she placed photos of me with her, and another one with Grace, Candy, Keren, and Daniel. : ) and on the first page she wrote, "What you have is God's gift to you. What you are is your gift to God". : ) love it.

please pray for me, im having colds and i think im down to something. have a good night! : )

ordinary summer night

it's Monday again!! i didn't sleep well last night. when i got home after dinner with my family, i went to bed and tried to sleep, but too many things are still running in my mind. and now my eyes have these dark circles again.

Baked Zitti

Pepperoni Pizza

over the weekend, i finally got to go to Sbarro and satisfy my cravings.. haha! the baked zitti with white sauce and the pizza made my day (and of course D). : ) after which, we watched Angels and Demons.

Open the doors, and tell the world the truth.

why is it so HOT these past few days?!? im going crazy especially during the afternoons. : ( even though you turn on the fan, the air that comes out of it feels like something that comes from a heater!! please let it RAIN. hehe.

i stayed home tonight because im so tired and sleepy. i'll be sleeping early tonight (hopefully..). oh and before i forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to AUNTIE REBECCA!!! : ) i miss you very much! and i hope to be able to visit you there in Cebu soon. : )

how...

where do i go?

which do i choose?

what do i do?

should i run from you? i want to run to you.

i thought i knew... i think i know.

i hope i make it through.

quick and short.

im glad that it's Friday already. after work, Auntie Tessie and i had an early dinner at David's Hot Pot near our office. we had Shabu-Shabu.. we ordered suahe, tofu, taro, corn, fish fillet, seafood dumplings, squid balls, and many more that i cant remember. the pot was almost full!! haha. we talked about alot of things and i learned more about her. : ) we had a good time, but past 7pm, we had to leave because i have to go to church for visitation with some sisters.

im going to bed in awhile. and before i forget, i hope you could drop by Mary Beth Chapman's and Jim Houser's blog today as they remember Maria on that fateful day last year. im blessed by their faith. may we all continue to hold on no matter how rough and dark the road gets.

*get well soon Candy!! i miss you. : )

05. 20. 09

Alda and I picked up our diploma from school on Monday. : ) while waiting for the registrar to come, we ate breakfast at McDo in the car park just across our building. seeing it again after a month, just made me smile. it is where i spent most of my days, even nights, for the past five years. even if there has been some changes now from when my Dad walked me during my first day of school, the lessons it taught me, will always be instilled in me. : )

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lately, i've been thinking of what to eat during breakfast. because i wake up early to prepare before going to work, i have to eat breakfast or else i'll starve, haha! i run out of ideas.. and sometimes, in the middle of the day, i find myself thinking of cream soups, pizzas, pastas, cakes, and many more foods. hahaha! as of the moment, im craving for Sbarro's Baked Zitti and White Pizza. who wants to go with me? :o)

goodnight. : )

05. 17. 09

Deb and Alda

Last Friday, Alda came over and we had dinner together and catch up on a lot of things. i missed her. : ) on Saturday when we came home from church, D and i went to Powerplant to buy something. was supposed to try Pepper Lunch but the line was long so we went to Dulcinea instead. i had my favorite Beef Salpicao. : ) the beef is so tender and flavorful. : ) i also loved the potatoes on the side.

Beef Salpicao

Chicken Cordon Bleu

this week seems pretty fast, don't you think? and here's another week. in two weeks, May is gone. will get my diploma from school tomorrow before going to work. : ) it still didn't sunk in my mind that im not going back to school anymore until my cousins went to the mall this afternoon to buy what they need for another school year. haha! D just left, and im going to bed already. goodnight all. : )

untitled.

i've tried to post several times but i cant find the words. anyway, ill write (type) anything that comes into mind so please bear with me. today marks my first month in work. so far so good, and i can say that i learned pretty lot. : ) after work, i went to my Aunt's house to teach her how to play piano, we also had dinner together. : ) i came home to get something and went to church to have practice for this Sunday's meeting.

because i have to hand a book to my friend, i joined the small group with them even if it's already quarter to 9pm. they were reading about Be Stable. when i opened my copy and started to read, i found this - Yet a person such as this, who lives so much by his emotion, is useless in spiritual work. He must be dealt with. yeah, i know that im an emotional person, i live with my emotions, and i get carried away and easily affected with my emotions. but i just cant help it. i dont want to be like this anymore. O.o

i've been talking a lot to a friend recently and she's going through something. she's frustrated, exhausted, hurting, and.. you name it. i feel so sad for her because i understand just how it feels to be in that situation. when we talk, i cant offer any advice, i can only listen and just be here because there are just no words. : ( i myself am not that okay too. sometimes i hope that i can stand this test that the Lord has given me, but later on found myself praying that He take this away because i cant stand it any longer. to take away the pain that my friend is hurting because it's just too much to bear.

today, Maria Sue Chapman would be turning six years old if she was still here on earth. but God took her to a better place with a reason only He knows and understands. i can only imagine how painful it is for their family. : (

with these things in mind, God placed this song in my heart:

Blessed Be Your Name
by Matt Redman

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

it's raining again.. i attended our small group tonight which talked about having a heart to suffer. more on that next time. but right now, there are no more words anymore... just tears. : (

i feel so lost.

Happy Birthday to my dear cousin Patricia!! : )

. i love you .

the long weekend

God's Big Backyard

we already finished our first four days of Vacation Bible School in our church today with the theme - God's Big Backyard. : ) where kids have a blast serving Jesus. we still have one last day next Sunday. i played with the band for the first two days and it went well. seeing the kids singing and dancing for the Lord just makes my heart smile. and they are so cute when they put their hands on their chest and pray together with the teachers. : ) we have story telling, games, memorizing of Bible verses, and crafts. there are five sites in all, and each class go to different sites per day. : )

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while im typing this, im talking with a friend online about some things. im glad that i can open up a lot to her, and her insights are really inspiring. she told me that being consecrated, or consecrating something, doesn't mean you won't get irritated, it's moment by moment just submitting the situation and yourself (emotions and thoughts) to the Lord, especially during the moments when it's hardest. *if you're reading this, i just want to let you know how thankful and proud i am to have a friend like you. : )

these past few days, there are some times when i just feel down and sad. without any reason. like there's nothing wrong but im still not feeling okay. then when you think that you're okay, you'll see things that'd just break your heart. i feel like something suddenly stole my faith away, blinded me completely, and left me broken wholly. im tired of feeling like this, and i know that maybe it's just me.. help me, Lord. like what my friend said, there's no other way out.. so which will you choose, to walk through this with or without the Lord?

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another Sunday evening, that would lead to Mondays again. which means it's time to go back to work again.

another week. another set of trials. please pray for me. thanks in advance. goodnight!! : )