You are so faithful

i was so tired when i got home yesterday. it was already past 6 and i still have to tutor my cousin. after dinner i went to church for bible study. it became a routine for me to go to church every sunday, tuesday, thursday, and saturday. sometimes if i have time, i'll also attend during mondays, wednesdays, and fridays. that is, if im not lazy .

but last night was different.

there was one brother sharing his testimony about the trials he's going through.. on how sad he is because of his angkong's condition. this brother is my friend. he told me recently that he's not okay. spiritually, emotionally.. even on his studies. his grandfather has been diagnosed having 4th stage cancer. while listening to him speak in front, i feel so sad for him. then suddenly i saw myself.. im just like him. im sad most of the time and i feel lost.. weak. i can deceive people and tell them im happy. put on a mask. but sometimes, the sweetest smiles mask the saddest face. then the Lord used this song to speak to me.

You Are So Faithful
Bob Fitts

Like the sun that rises everyday
You are so faithful, Lord you are faithful
Like the rain that You send and every breath that I breathe
You are so faithful, Lord

Like a rose that comes alive every spring
You are so faithful, Lord you are faithful
Like the life that You give to every beat of my heart
You are so faithful, Lord

I see a cross and the price You had to pay
I see the blood that washes my sins away

And in the midst of a storm through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful You'll still be faithful
And when the stars refuse to shine and time is no more
You'll still be faithful You'll still be faithful
My Lord

i don't know what to say.. God sees everything. many times, i don't feel like sharing my problems to Him. i don't feel like doing things for Him because i feel so caught up with the things i still need to do for myself. but He showed me that even if i forget the vows i have made to the Lord, but He will never forget. and He will be the One to fulfill it in His time. : ) im not perfect, i screw up.. a lot. but He will be the one to make it. He'll see me through. because He is faithful. : )