unfortunate events.

last night, grace and i went to visit a gospel friend. im glad that they agreed to go to interview with us and be baptized on Sunday morning. when we were about to leave, the mom was so furious and yelled at us. questioning what we were doing to her daughters, and told us eversince we invited them to go to church, they changed. that they became disrespectful, self-centered and all. it lasted for about ten minutes and we just kept silent. shocked maybe? but there's nothing to say really. because she won't understand us either.

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this afternoon, i went to the drugstore to buy something, then i saw this scary-looking man looking at me. and he was paying attention to my every move. so i looked back at him as if saying "what!?". i waited for him and his two friends to finish paying for what they bought and leave the drugstore. i waited for sometime to make sure they won't return. i stepped out, looked around and the coast is clear, but as i reached the corner, i saw the three of them again, looking around to see if there were people and back at me. it's so creepy! so i turned around and thankfully saw a Baranggay Tanod, i told him to please cross the street with me because the guys were really scary and i think they wanted to holdup me. it's embarrassing, feels like im a 6year old girl again, but it really scared me. :( *sigh*

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what a day.

im tired.

im tired of the never-ending things needed to be done.

im tired of the noise at home.

im tired of being angry at people not being considerate of others' feelings.

im tired of thinking.

im tired of not being able to get answers.

im tired of the ups.

im tired of the downs.

im tired of the rollercoaster.

and i just want off.

because im tired.

HANS

Happy Birthday to my Little Brother ~ HANS. :)

Wordless Wednesday

short.

weekend's almost over. really so tired now. been waking up so early and sleeping so late this week. :(

goodnight world.

Alda.

Happy 22nd Birthday Alda!! :)

thank you for the dinner.

but most of all,

for being a great and true friend. :)

♥

Jen's 23rd

Happy 23rd Birthday to my best friend Jen!! :)

This (Not So Good) Week

this is what surprised me Tuesday night. my grandmother beside one of the cabinets that housed some of my things. i asked her what she was doing and she was just so furious. this then led to unpleasant conversations and yelling that left me crying all night. i didn't answered back anymore because i know it will only make things worse than they already are. she's really not herself and i just don't understand her anymore.

and here comes Basyang (the typhoon). the wind howled all night and lights were out. and it was a really sad sad night. one of the saddest i can remember and it feels like im so lost.

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fast forward to today. Sunday. the grownups went to a party during lunch, so i, together with my brother and two cousins, went to the mall to pick up a book i pre-ordered at Powerbooks. :)

got it! :) Crazy Love by Francis Chan. :) i got many books now waiting to be read. hmmm.. it's all goood. :)

we stopped by Cerealicious to snack and rest for awhile.

About A-hoy : coco pops, chips ahoy, choco kisses

Pirates of the Cadbury-ean : koko duo, cadbury zip, oreo

Jumango : cornflakes, mango, honey crumble

it was gloomy and raining on our way home and it reminded me again of what these past few days had brought me. *sigh*

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thanks to Joy for the pictures. :)

yup, she also took the first picture. ;)

Basyang

Wednesday night was a total blackout.

it was like ghost town here in Binondo!

anyway, glad that it's already Friday.

and power lines are now restored.

except for some rotating brownouts.

Happy Monday

today, i got two things that made my Monday a happy one. :)

Books

my much awaited books! :) Plan B by Pete Wilson, I Will Carry You by Angie Smith (yeah i bought two!!), and The One Year Book of Hope by Nancy Guthrie. i was really looking forward to reading these books. thanks Candy! :)

Starbuck's To Go Strap

while wrapping my new books and eating Yellow Cab's pizza, my Dad came home and gave me this cute cellphone strap from Starbucks. that's sweet of him. :)

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lately, im struggling on how to deal with my grandmother. she started to change two weeks ago. she suddenly becomes so full of energy that she wants to get involved in everything. she cleans eveything she could get her hands on, she threw away some things that meant so much to me, she emptied our pantry, she opens my cabinet, she comments on my clothes, my things, on how i do things. actually, she's not only like that to me, she's like that almost towards everybody. it seems like there's always something (bad) to say all the time. and it seems like i don't know her anymore. it just makes me sad and frustrated. :( i work with her, i live with her, and i share the same room with her. and im really sad because i can't do anything about it. i just want to have her old self back. :(

and so... im always sad, whether i go to work or come home. either way, im still with her. it's not that i don't want to be with her, it's just that i don't want what's happening between us. it makes me want to get away for awhile. to breathe. :(

anyways, i think it's time to hit the sack. early tomorrow! i hope tomorrow will be a good day. goodnight folks. :)

Hello July

hello all. it's a new month once again. we're now on the 7th month of 2010. :)

yesterday, i had a training for Sunday School early in the morning. after that, i tutored then went back to work. we're still open even during holidays.

we now have a new president too. :) i hope Aquino will do better than Arroyo.

last night, i attended our practice for Sunday. our song - Who Am I. if ever, it will be our first time to sing it. but our practice didn't go well. :( im trying to find an easier piano piece, then i got a text that our songs will be changed already.

im still at home now. because we have a new maid, so i have to show her around. i'll be back at work after lunch. :)

so there, just popped in to do a quick post. :) now i'll go back to cleaning my book shelf. :)

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inside the Safari Jeep @Zoobic :)

after my meeting last Sunday, i went out with the girls to celebrate Candy's birthday. :)

we took a studio pic together (with a not-so-good and impatient photographer), and had Razon's halo-halo afterwards. :) the time we spent was short, but i still enjoyed it. :) in August, Candy's gonna work in China already. i sure am going to miss her. :)

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today is not a good day. im so frustrated and sad with my grandmother. she's been nagging the whole time since yesterday. i hate it! i hate whatever's gotten into her! :( i can't imagine how to deal with it if this continues the whole week. im going to DIE.

nagging + noise + overcrowded = DEAD inside

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look! i think this is a cool calendar. ;) found here.

goodnight :)

This week - In a Glance

Sunday: i went to World Trade with Aileen and Hans for the food expo. :) bought some goodies too.

:korean dinner at Maru. :)

Monday: i was surprised to see my cousin Sherlock who came to my office to visit. he's all grown up now! he's taller. im older. haha. heard some news about our guakong and guama (maternal grandparents), who sold their business already and finally retired. livin' the good life :)

:made mashed potatoes tonight and played UNO cards! :)

Tuesday: i finally got my yearbook! :) my college yearbook is here, but my high school yearbook is nowhere to be found. seeing my name and picture there reminds me of one thing - im getting old! my school days are over. but it will always hold a special place in my heart. :)

Wednesday: attended an orientation for Hannah at St.Stephens.

:my cousin Joy got herself a DSLR for her photography class at school. :)

Thursday: Manila Day! :) watched Toy Story 3 with my cousins and Erwin. :)

Friday: lovin' Kaspersky. :) i bought an anti virus for my computer because i need it badly. viruses are everywhere and the old one i have isn't able to detect and delete it properly. so im glad to have this, even though it's a little bit pricey for me since i always use the free ones i get to download from the net.

:this afternoon, i was given a chance to share in our Gospel Meeting at church, together with Koo. :) im so scared up until the last minute i feel like im going to puke. but the Lord was there the entire meeting and im thankful that He carried us through. :)

:rained so hard! i love it! :)

Saturday: after tutoring and picking up the groceries, i went to see Alda. :) it's been so long since we last saw each other! :)

:lunch with Dustin. :) then he went back to work and i just watched DVD at home - Forrest Gump. :) loved the silence and privacy i had even for a short while. :) sometimes, it's good to be alone too. :)

:tonight, i got some news and i don't know what to feel about it. i know i should be happy, but im really scared because i know what im capable of, and i think i can't make it. please pray for me. :) thanks!

and for TOMORROW:

Happy sweet 27th to my dear friend CANDY! :)

i love you, you know i do. thanks for all! :)