just a few days ago, i made one of the most important decisions in my life. it was something that will change the rest of my future - a future i have thought i have believed in for years.

some things just aren't meant to be, no matter how long you've invested your heart and soul into it. life is full of gambles, and it is a journey. there are rewards, but only if you make choices.. only if you make decisions on how you want to live your life. should i stay even if there have been too many signs that i have willfully ignored? should i hold on even if i have doubts?

and so, i choose to let go. i choose, and i choose to gamble. because this is how i want to live my life. this is how i can live my life. i may have caused pain and hurt, but whichever way i look at it, i will still cause pain and hurt, because i can never be happy anymore.

i can say sorry.. say it is my fault. because i have been weak. and i mean it, because it is my fault. in moments of solitude, i might wonder about what could have been and shed some tears. yet i do not have regrets.

i have loved and been loved unconditionally.i have been happy.

some things just could never be.